Wanted to say goodbye..

It's okay to be alone?
It's okay for me to loiter around without any reason??
It's okay for me to share nothing with my friends and family???
Sorry to say that, I can't!
I can't walk without anyone..I need to have someone to accompany me..
I don't have secrets. I share everything with my friends and family.
They can understand.
My school's problems? My relationship's problems?
Even, I love "HIM", they knew that.
So what??

To HIM,
Seriously, I don't know what happen to you. Although usually you don't smile, but yesterday you seems so MOODY. Wanted to ask you, but I know I can't. This is because I want to know why. Not I still like you or love you. For me, you're my friend. I don't know whether you treat me as your friend or not. But, I do care about you. Be frank, sometimes, I'll still think about you. But, not that frequent anymore. Sometime, pass by your house, will think of you, it's normal isn't it? Few days later, is your birthday. To stop me from posting a "happy birthday" wish on your facebook wall, I choose to deactivate my facebook account. I know, what I post on your wall and what I get is just a simple sentence which is "thank you". What's the point? And I know someone will post on your wall and then you guys will start a sweet conversation. I want to know but I dare not see. I know it feels hurt. I'm not going to let myself to step it deeper and deeper. The more I know, the more I feel sad. I know you're not belong to me. That's the reason why I choose to let go and not to hold it as tight as I can. Maybe I know, one day, you'll ask me to let go. Miracle, I know you're exist in this world. Just that you're busy with your works and forget about me. It's okay, I'll wait until you're free and remember me. But honestly, you're really powerful to me. You're are the reason why I study until midnight and study at school just because of the stupid exams. I know you're smart, and I want to fight with you, compete with you. I don't want you to feel I'm a stupid girl. I believe I can! Anyway, you're just a friend for me and thank you so much. Lastly, I still want to wish you happy birthday. I wish you can get what you want and there's always a smile on your face. This is what I can only do for you. Goodbye and all the best. :)