Me, Myself and I

Sometimes, I can be very cheerful and happy
Sometimes, I can be very funny
Sometimes, I can be very crazy
Sometimes, I can be very cute or kawaii
Sometimes, I can be very DOWN or MOODY
But! When I'm angry.. Better don't come and disturb ME!
You'll either "DIE" or "SERIOUSLY INJURED"
Sorry to say that, I'm serious...
When I'm angry, my face will just like "charcoal" - That black! *direct translate from Cantonese*
When I'm angry, my friends know what happen and just keep quiet and leave me alone.
I would like to drink a lot of water and listen to instrumental songs to calm me down when I'm angry
And bad words will just come out from my mouth - What to do? I can't control

Another topic
I like these pictures so badly, but someone says cannot post on facebook
So, I post it here! :)

Nice isn't it? Hmm....

CARELESS!

Just because of CARELESS, I lost my 22 marks for Chemistry! Can you just imagine that?! Is 22 marks, not 2 marks. From 78 (A-) to 56 (C+), can you see the difference? Damn it!! When I got the paper, I was like shit! What the hell!?!? Be frank, I thought I can get at least an A- and actually I did it. Just because of careless, didn't read properly and do blindly. That is the consequences of over confidence. I cried for about one and a half hour. It is not I dunno how to do, is CARELESS! I ask myself why? But unfortunately, me, myself dunno how to answer this question.
How to comfort myself?
1) Tell myself, is not I dunno, it is just I careless
2) It is just a small test, aim for PPT next time!

Tell myself that I still love Chemistry, I still love you the most! <3 br="">

Finaly, exams is over!

Wooh, take a deep breath!
Finally, exams is over...
After suffering for around one week plus, now... everything is over!!!
Proud to say that, this first term test is quite easy. HEHE
But, when I say EASY, usually my result will be very BAD
I dunno why actually, can someone tell me why??
Never mind, it's okay!!!
What I know is I don't have to do any revision temporary!
It sounds great! YEAH!
Okay, there is a problem - Am I going to fail my Sivik paper?
68 marks for section B and I totally have no idea how to answer
Leave it blank?! Of course not, silly answers all around the answer sheet.
She scold? Who cares?! It's just only SIVIK wad
Important? I don't think so...
But what if I really fail that subject?
Will be the first subject I fail in this school - and it's SIVIK
Isn't it weird?
Come on, SIVIK is all about common sense.
I thought this too before I sit for my SIVIK test
And what I thought was WRONG!!
It's not all, only a small part!
That's why I worry about that so much...
Let me ask you one easy question - Apakah maksud Pendidikan Sepanjang Hayat
What the ****
Is this important?
Now, I'm going to take my good rest...
Stay up for so many nights, not enough sleep..
And sincerely, thanks to Nescafe 3 in 1... It helps me to stay awake for the whole night and during exam period. LOVE YOU!!
But I don't need you temporary, I will come to you once again on May! P-P-T-
Bye! <3 br="">

DOESN"T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT?!

Last week, my tuition teacher told me this - "Guys, you don't have much time left" with a serious tone.
I was like - Am I going to die soon? The world is going to end soon again? Have to say goodbye to each other? I can't open my eyes again once I close?
NO!!!
Literally meaning - SPM is just around the corner!
Now already is March, and this year SPM's is moved forward. 06 November 2013!
At that moment, I feel scared, nervous, don't know what to do.
I tell myself, is time to do time management again!!!
Today is the first day of exam - First term test!
The first exam in form 5?
New topics, new chapters, new type of questions. Everything is new to me!!!
Let's talk about today's exam.....
English - The main problem is GRAMMAR! All the tenses....RUBBISH!
Maths - For me, this is not really a problem. Should I be that confident? Urm...
Pendidikan Sivik - OH GOSH!! This is a very BIG PROBLEM! I don't know how to do section B and it consists of 68 marks! Gone case...
Chemistry - Be frank, I love chemistry. But when come to exam, result is not that satisfied. Don't ask me why, because I might don't know how to answer your question.
I think of some probabilities - I dunno the technique to answer? I'm too stupid?
How am I supposed to know how to overcome these problems?!

However, I have self-confidence. I believe I can score straight A's in my future major exam - SPM
I know I shouldn't be over confident but it is better than no confidence at ALL!
Tomorrow I'm having my Sejarah test, BM and also Physics!
Just wish me good luck.
Thank you!! <3 br="">

Wanted to say goodbye..

It's okay to be alone?
It's okay for me to loiter around without any reason??
It's okay for me to share nothing with my friends and family???
Sorry to say that, I can't!
I can't walk without anyone..I need to have someone to accompany me..
I don't have secrets. I share everything with my friends and family.
They can understand.
My school's problems? My relationship's problems?
Even, I love "HIM", they knew that.
So what??

To HIM,
Seriously, I don't know what happen to you. Although usually you don't smile, but yesterday you seems so MOODY. Wanted to ask you, but I know I can't. This is because I want to know why. Not I still like you or love you. For me, you're my friend. I don't know whether you treat me as your friend or not. But, I do care about you. Be frank, sometimes, I'll still think about you. But, not that frequent anymore. Sometime, pass by your house, will think of you, it's normal isn't it? Few days later, is your birthday. To stop me from posting a "happy birthday" wish on your facebook wall, I choose to deactivate my facebook account. I know, what I post on your wall and what I get is just a simple sentence which is "thank you". What's the point? And I know someone will post on your wall and then you guys will start a sweet conversation. I want to know but I dare not see. I know it feels hurt. I'm not going to let myself to step it deeper and deeper. The more I know, the more I feel sad. I know you're not belong to me. That's the reason why I choose to let go and not to hold it as tight as I can. Maybe I know, one day, you'll ask me to let go. Miracle, I know you're exist in this world. Just that you're busy with your works and forget about me. It's okay, I'll wait until you're free and remember me. But honestly, you're really powerful to me. You're are the reason why I study until midnight and study at school just because of the stupid exams. I know you're smart, and I want to fight with you, compete with you. I don't want you to feel I'm a stupid girl. I believe I can! Anyway, you're just a friend for me and thank you so much. Lastly, I still want to wish you happy birthday. I wish you can get what you want and there's always a smile on your face. This is what I can only do for you. Goodbye and all the best. :)