Girl, I'm sorry!

After reading your blog, I knew my first impression towards you was totally WRONG!
You're a sensitive person, just like a simple girl.
I really learnt that we should judge a person by looking at his or her inner part.
I know it's hard,but we should!
When I realised there are three people include me like the same person,
Sorry to say that, I feel sad, disappointed.
I decided to quit as I don't have the qualifications to fight.
You have the intelligence, she has beauty
What do I have? Answer is NOTHING
You're right girl, he influenced me too
Because of him, I studied hard.
I can see my improvements...
Because he's smart and I don't want to feel a gap between he and me
But when I found out his heart already belonged to someone
Of course, heart broken, tears flow out like water tap
Couldn't stop it.
After a while, I let go
Now I feel better because I found out that there's someone who cares about me before...
But now, I wanted to grab it..
But it just slipped between my fingers.
He no longer care about me, he doesn't want to talk to me.
Even he doesn't want to read my message.
Sad?! Of course I did
But seriously, SPM is just around the corner
What I need to do is just focus on my studies...
Straight A's for me to continue my studies in medical field.
JANICE KHOO! I know you can, just a bit lazy
Plain bread or lobster in your future, its decided by me
I'm the one who decide..
No one can help me.
LOVE AND STUDIES I hope I can get both
BYE!

I dun understand you

Hello, my dear. Don't judge my relationship status by looking at my status. And I explained to you that I haven't got a boy friend yet! Ever since I posted that status and you said "I try to distract from something that I shouldn't think it anymore." Come on, what is that mean? Seriously... You never talk to me since that day. To sudden, for me. At least tell me the reason why?! I asked you whether you're angry with me or not, and you answered NO! But your action tells me there are something which I don't know. Posting that kind of status. Urghh, it's my fault to post all those status, can you please forgive me and talk to me back. Your intonation, seriously, hurts me. Hanging my conversation like nothing. I'm a girl, please think of me. Last friday, you asked me out! Okay, happy. But I can't make it due to your super last minute. Yesterday you asked me out again to play basketball. And I'm having badminton with my friends. Sorry to say that, I have to reject again. The third time already. I know it's a bit weird. Therefore I ask you out for breakfast and you say you're having MCD with your friends. I say "it's okay, you enjoy la, next time lo." Once again, hang my conversation again. Just now, I asked you whether you're scout or not. Answer NO, I say okay. You know what, last time, you'll ask WHY?, but now no more. I start the conversation, and end it. Seriously, I gave up a lot of times but I still manage to continue. But no one knows how long can I stand. 1 week? Or 2 weeks? Sometimes, I feel very tired. Oh ya! Another problem, your status...."Do you think she will accept me if I propose to her?" Urghhh, damn it! Either you say it first, or I end it first!

Results

Results are not that satisfied
What I expected were higher
Although is not that low
But still feel disappointed...
Actually almost the whole class is doing SO SO
Should I feel okay or....
I plan this coming holiday wanna study
Do you think it works?
Shit man!!!!
SPM is coming.....Preparation??
NOTHING!?
Should starts now I know....
Quite lazy but I know I can't be lazy anymore
SPM=Future
Is what my form teacher always say this to us, like EVERYDAY
Keep on reminding us about the importance of SPM
And she said all of us must get straight A+
Hey, do you think that easy to score?
LOL...
Common sense man!!!
Oh GOSH
I want IMPROVEMENT!
Gotta study now...

SICK!

I still remember I said this last week -" I have strong antibodies, I never get sick last year."
Maybe this sentence heard by God, and He punished me.
He invited some friends to my body.
Who are them? - Fever, flu, cough and sore throat.
On Friday, I had fever and sore throat
On Saturday, I had flu
Today, I have cough! *akhem*
Okay, it is fine if sick for the whole week but not during exam period.
I planned my time management so well and yet I cannot make it due to my DEAR friends.
I ate the medicine... I will be dozed off after one hour
What can I do after that?
Go up on my bed and TAKE A SHORT NAP
Two hours passed by...
Wake up.. Let's use some adjectives to describes my face - Steam, Blur, Sleepy
And take my bath... Sit on the sofa and started dreaming again - as usual
Tik-tok tik-tok
Oops, another one hour had burnt!
Seriously, sick makes me so tired and lazy.
Dear God, I'm sorry for saying that nonsense.
I swear I'll never ever say that again, please save me from all the friends You had invited.


Oh ya, I really dunno what the hell am I doing when I was riding a bike.
Accidents happen many times and yet I still.... *akhem*
I dunno why I wanna take my motor license.
Is freaking hard to ride!
But I need to pass my motor!!! All the best Janice!

Me, Myself and I

Sometimes, I can be very cheerful and happy
Sometimes, I can be very funny
Sometimes, I can be very crazy
Sometimes, I can be very cute or kawaii
Sometimes, I can be very DOWN or MOODY
But! When I'm angry.. Better don't come and disturb ME!
You'll either "DIE" or "SERIOUSLY INJURED"
Sorry to say that, I'm serious...
When I'm angry, my face will just like "charcoal" - That black! *direct translate from Cantonese*
When I'm angry, my friends know what happen and just keep quiet and leave me alone.
I would like to drink a lot of water and listen to instrumental songs to calm me down when I'm angry
And bad words will just come out from my mouth - What to do? I can't control

Another topic
I like these pictures so badly, but someone says cannot post on facebook
So, I post it here! :)

Nice isn't it? Hmm....

CARELESS!

Just because of CARELESS, I lost my 22 marks for Chemistry! Can you just imagine that?! Is 22 marks, not 2 marks. From 78 (A-) to 56 (C+), can you see the difference? Damn it!! When I got the paper, I was like shit! What the hell!?!? Be frank, I thought I can get at least an A- and actually I did it. Just because of careless, didn't read properly and do blindly. That is the consequences of over confidence. I cried for about one and a half hour. It is not I dunno how to do, is CARELESS! I ask myself why? But unfortunately, me, myself dunno how to answer this question.
How to comfort myself?
1) Tell myself, is not I dunno, it is just I careless
2) It is just a small test, aim for PPT next time!

Tell myself that I still love Chemistry, I still love you the most! <3 br="">

Finaly, exams is over!

Wooh, take a deep breath!
Finally, exams is over...
After suffering for around one week plus, now... everything is over!!!
Proud to say that, this first term test is quite easy. HEHE
But, when I say EASY, usually my result will be very BAD
I dunno why actually, can someone tell me why??
Never mind, it's okay!!!
What I know is I don't have to do any revision temporary!
It sounds great! YEAH!
Okay, there is a problem - Am I going to fail my Sivik paper?
68 marks for section B and I totally have no idea how to answer
Leave it blank?! Of course not, silly answers all around the answer sheet.
She scold? Who cares?! It's just only SIVIK wad
Important? I don't think so...
But what if I really fail that subject?
Will be the first subject I fail in this school - and it's SIVIK
Isn't it weird?
Come on, SIVIK is all about common sense.
I thought this too before I sit for my SIVIK test
And what I thought was WRONG!!
It's not all, only a small part!
That's why I worry about that so much...
Let me ask you one easy question - Apakah maksud Pendidikan Sepanjang Hayat
What the ****
Is this important?
Now, I'm going to take my good rest...
Stay up for so many nights, not enough sleep..
And sincerely, thanks to Nescafe 3 in 1... It helps me to stay awake for the whole night and during exam period. LOVE YOU!!
But I don't need you temporary, I will come to you once again on May! P-P-T-
Bye! <3 br="">

DOESN"T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT?!

Last week, my tuition teacher told me this - "Guys, you don't have much time left" with a serious tone.
I was like - Am I going to die soon? The world is going to end soon again? Have to say goodbye to each other? I can't open my eyes again once I close?
NO!!!
Literally meaning - SPM is just around the corner!
Now already is March, and this year SPM's is moved forward. 06 November 2013!
At that moment, I feel scared, nervous, don't know what to do.
I tell myself, is time to do time management again!!!
Today is the first day of exam - First term test!
The first exam in form 5?
New topics, new chapters, new type of questions. Everything is new to me!!!
Let's talk about today's exam.....
English - The main problem is GRAMMAR! All the tenses....RUBBISH!
Maths - For me, this is not really a problem. Should I be that confident? Urm...
Pendidikan Sivik - OH GOSH!! This is a very BIG PROBLEM! I don't know how to do section B and it consists of 68 marks! Gone case...
Chemistry - Be frank, I love chemistry. But when come to exam, result is not that satisfied. Don't ask me why, because I might don't know how to answer your question.
I think of some probabilities - I dunno the technique to answer? I'm too stupid?
How am I supposed to know how to overcome these problems?!

However, I have self-confidence. I believe I can score straight A's in my future major exam - SPM
I know I shouldn't be over confident but it is better than no confidence at ALL!
Tomorrow I'm having my Sejarah test, BM and also Physics!
Just wish me good luck.
Thank you!! <3 br="">

Wanted to say goodbye..

It's okay to be alone?
It's okay for me to loiter around without any reason??
It's okay for me to share nothing with my friends and family???
Sorry to say that, I can't!
I can't walk without anyone..I need to have someone to accompany me..
I don't have secrets. I share everything with my friends and family.
They can understand.
My school's problems? My relationship's problems?
Even, I love "HIM", they knew that.
So what??

To HIM,
Seriously, I don't know what happen to you. Although usually you don't smile, but yesterday you seems so MOODY. Wanted to ask you, but I know I can't. This is because I want to know why. Not I still like you or love you. For me, you're my friend. I don't know whether you treat me as your friend or not. But, I do care about you. Be frank, sometimes, I'll still think about you. But, not that frequent anymore. Sometime, pass by your house, will think of you, it's normal isn't it? Few days later, is your birthday. To stop me from posting a "happy birthday" wish on your facebook wall, I choose to deactivate my facebook account. I know, what I post on your wall and what I get is just a simple sentence which is "thank you". What's the point? And I know someone will post on your wall and then you guys will start a sweet conversation. I want to know but I dare not see. I know it feels hurt. I'm not going to let myself to step it deeper and deeper. The more I know, the more I feel sad. I know you're not belong to me. That's the reason why I choose to let go and not to hold it as tight as I can. Maybe I know, one day, you'll ask me to let go. Miracle, I know you're exist in this world. Just that you're busy with your works and forget about me. It's okay, I'll wait until you're free and remember me. But honestly, you're really powerful to me. You're are the reason why I study until midnight and study at school just because of the stupid exams. I know you're smart, and I want to fight with you, compete with you. I don't want you to feel I'm a stupid girl. I believe I can! Anyway, you're just a friend for me and thank you so much. Lastly, I still want to wish you happy birthday. I wish you can get what you want and there's always a smile on your face. This is what I can only do for you. Goodbye and all the best. :)

I still remember...

I still remember when I was 6-year-old
I did so many silly things like shit on my pants..
Chasing each other during recess time...
Eat like a dumbo..
Act like a crazy people...
Play in a playground..no one will look at me and they might feel that I'm cute. Maybe?
Everyday was like, no worries, nothing to think about. Exams, future, WHO cares?
Fool around with each other, things that need to do everyday was EAT, DRINK, SLEEP, PLAY! That's all!
Laughing throughout the whole day..
When I feel like crying, just cry it out LOUD
When I feel like laughing, just laugh like a someone who is just came out from TANJUNG RAMBUTAN
Now, already 17-year-old..
Considered as a matured age..
I need to think twice before I do anything.
When I try to act like a kid, will others think that "Is she insane?? Form 5 student and still act like a kid" or something else?
When I'm sad, feel like crying..I will think "Should I cry? I'm matured now, matured girl shouldn't cry."
When I'm happy, I try to loud as loud as I can, to show that I'm really happy..But will they think "This girl is so impolite! Like a guy.."
I can't really do what I want to do. Although, I know I shouldn't care what people think of me. I just have to be myself.
And the most important thing is, I like to sulk.
I know, this kind of attitude is really...CHILDISH!
But what to do? That's me! JANICE KHOO
Sometimes, I will think...
"Even form 1 students are more matured than ME"
Think positive "Form 5 cannot act like a kid? Who said so?"
*THUMBS UP*

Come ON!

Well..
Today, I went for shopping with my mom. We passed by a phone stall (Sony Brand). I saw one phone was waving hands to me, and saying "Hello, I'm here!" I turned back, and look at him. He is so "handsome" and "smarty"! Oh gosh, I just can't control myself by asking the seller to take it out and let me TOUCH it! His body was so FIT just like having six abs. He don't feel shy when I touched him, molest his whole body from top to down, from left to right and from back to front. His face is so smooth until don't have a single pimple. His eyes are so sharp and clear until can capture everything I like and I want. His organs are too much but still can slot in more and more.... But I still need to emphasize that, HE is still very FIT!! Don't have a big TOMMY, not like me! He has two brothers which have different colour. One is black while another one is white, and MY HANDSOME GUY is pink in colour! Oh GOSH, can you imagine how handsome is him? I wanted to take it back so badly. But his price...RM1499!!!! Is quite expensive anyway.. Ended up, I smile and told the seller that I have to go back and calculate my budget first. I have to say "GOODBYE, MY DARLING" to my beloved phone. And I promised him, I might be back, remember to wait for me! And HE replied, I'll see first! WHAT?!
I think I fall in love with this phone... He is SONY EXPERIA TX! Let's see how fit is his body!!

P/S Just ignore my grammar mistakes. I think I'll improve more next time! Thanks..

一眼都不望我的“他”

当一个人无视了你的存在的时候
那种感觉真的很难受
难道“他”真的看不到我吗？
不可能啊   我又不是透明的

说真的，我真的很羡慕[她]
[她] -  人美  又惹人喜爱
会是一个 很惹人爱惜、疼爱的人

不知道 该说 -倒霉- 还是 -跟[她]一样， 眼光那么好
巧合 让我们喜欢上了  同一个人
我跟[她]来比较   [她]的胜数当然会比我高
但是  应该不会至于  用 -天跟地-  来比较吧！

无论如何 每个人都有自己的短处与长处
所以每个人都是  全世界独一无二的
其实不需要为了  一切事情  一些事物  来改变自己
改变了  就不是真正的自己了
会变成  他人所说的 “虚伪”
相信总有一天  会遇到  一个  能够真正明白自己  了解自己  接受你的短与长处的人

虽然  真的很想快点找到
可是  我明白 必须等到时机到

既然说要把“他”放下   就必须说到做到
对我来说  应该不容易  怎么说都必须每个星期都得见到
有时真的怀疑  时间真的能冲淡一切吗？
那么  需要多长的时间呢？

看见“他”跟[她]那么的亲密   心....也会不舒服了起来
会觉得很惹人厌
可是仔细想想  我不可以因为“他”不喜欢我
就不爽跟“他”在一起的女生

做人还是度量大一点好 别那么小气
相信明天会更好
奇迹 真在往我的方向去
我....耐心的等